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Ego- Edging God Out
By Lori Bushey

I have a natural calm these days and I know not where it comes from, perhaps it is the fact that I have released ego and now practice walking in the light. There was a time when I was a “Day Tripper” teasing and breezing through an egotistical life, looking for all the wrong things in all the wrong places. My ego visits me from time to time, but I keep it at arm’s length, caged and without access to the key. This is the lesson I have learned about “Ego” once it takes a hold of you, it will never let you go. It creeps in, appearing in the mirror, whispering in your ear in profound times, enticing you to chase “your” tiger. I refuse to partake in this dalliance and know my present calm comes from its release.

It is said in life that the less we know the better off we are, but in the case of Ego, the opposite holds true. Recently, I have endured a number of humbling experiences, reminders that Ego is still hanging around, regardless of whether I pay attention to it or not. Recently, during a power hour yoga class, I began to feel puny and weak, a sign that I just may not make it through a one hour practice. I actually contemplated the fact that I may have to leave class, instead, I calmed my Ego thoughts and said to myself, “Slow down, do what you can without pushing yourself, it’s OK.” It was OK and I no longer peaked at the time under my armpit in downward dog, rather I embraced my “human” side. I don’t compete with people or things; I compete with me, my Ego! What a humbling experience it is to allow yourself to just “Be” and not “Excel” at any one thing.

This is easier said than done in a society that pressures us to excel at work, play, and home, both physically, mentally, and sometimes even spiritually. As a yogini, I strive to live the lifestyle and follow Patanjali’s Sutras, none of which really focus on the physical practice of yoga for physical gain. Yet, I find myself researching all aspects of yoga, its roots, and its legacy. This journey has taken me to a full study and history of Mysore India, the mecca of Ashtanga yoga. Yogis and Yoginis from all over the world flock to this city desiring to enhance their practice, gain more enlightenment, and samadhi. It is indeed a lofty goal and worthy of the journey for many people.

My research lately was conducted because I, too, considered this journey, that is until I realized it may be my Ego that wanted this more than Lori. I truly believe in following your heart and intuition when it comes to life journeys. When we listen to our intuition, wonderful realizations come in to play. I am calm, safe, secure, and I love my life.  The desires in my heart pertain more to the sutras of well-being, surrender, and release. Minding my own business, “MMOB” is my motto and my elixir in life. There are so many things in this world run by egotistical politicians, managers, and CEOs and lacking simple common sense and the milk of human kindness. People gossip, mock, and ridicule what doesn’t fit in to their lifestyle or what they cannot explain or understand, becoming lost in translation. Everything we say, think, our judgment, ideals, and actions, all come from three letters, Ego!  

Do I want to perfect Bhujapidasana (Shoulder pressing pose)? Of course I do, but Ego aside, I know intuitively, all is well. I am a former athlete and that ingrained desire to practice and perfect floats around in my brain, whenever I allow it. So, I strive to release this mind chatter and become the person I am meant to be. I am not my practice, my practice emancipates me, and I am exactly where I am supposed to be. Ego, or edging God out, is the epitome of useless thinking. We are nothing without God, universe, our higher power, and intuition. On this day, I set my intentions to be strong in my practice, whether I flail off balance or land on my arse. The goal of yoga is to calm the mind. If I can do this in daily life, my practice is perfect, and I am exactly where I am supposed to be in life and on my yoga mat.

Peace and Namaste.

About Lori Bushey:

Lori Bushéy is an Advanced Placement Literature and Composition instructor with an education background from Exeter College, Oxford University, England, the University of Minnesota, and the College of St. Scholastica. 

Lori teaches yoga at Hot Yoga Largo, Clearwater Fitness, and Ashtanga-based Yoga on Indian Rocks Beach. Working remotely enabled Lori to practice daily and develop discipline of the mind and body. After an extensive home practice Lori pursued and earned her RYT Training at Anala Yoga under the direction of Ally Ford. Lori lives the yoga lifestyle and truly believes in the positive benefits of the practice. If you ask her “What is yoga?” her response will be, in the words of Rodney Yee, “Yoga is poetry of the body”  and what else would you expect from an English major? Namaste and continue to cultivate Seva.

Lori may be reached at:  labegr@aol.com or on Facebook at http://www.facebook.com/Yoga2tao 

Lori offers private and group Yoga classes and seasonal beach yoga classes at Indian Rocks and Clearwater Beach. Check out the events section or contact Lori for details.

 



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